Tuesday, February 09, 2010
@10:50 PM
whats wrong with you, chris.
you can't have it all.
but still something inside feels kinda.....envious. maybe jealous.
weren't you the one who thought it was okay to leave and let?
weren't you?
superficial monster. i hate you.
Une prière de silet pour celle amour d'I
Monday, January 25, 2010
@1:53 AM
why am i feeling bitter tonight.
could it be these bitter chocolates, which i had sudden liking for.
or is it you, which i cannot have.
Une prière de silet pour celle amour d'I
Saturday, January 23, 2010
@2:47 AM
you know sometimes i wished i could have all your attention. undivided attention.
even if it is saying nothing at all.
if i could earn all the money and power in the world...
would that be enough to buy your heart?
or am i delusioned.
Une prière de silet pour celle amour d'I
Wednesday, January 20, 2010
@10:46 PM
im sitting in my room so bored nothing to do. games bore me or even give me motion sickness. no mood to study now though its the only thing that i can do but i had quite the enough today.
Random thought: i do not really enjoy studying most of the things that i study most of the time, honestly. i just do it cos...i have to? because of where it MIGHT take me? because its the best bet i have? i wonder if i'll study something that really interests me but there isn't much allowances for that. whats important is the final grade, my interests doesn't really matter does it? our system was just built that way...my s/u chances are just to try and keep my cap from going down whenever possible, instead of what it was SUPPOSED to do, which was allow students to try subjects they are interested in but may not necessarily score.
so terribly bored tonight. sigh.
Une prière de silet pour celle amour d'I
Sunday, January 17, 2010
@2:12 AM
when will i ever find back that faith i misplaced a many.
when have you ever become so distrusting.
why are you feelin this emptiness.
when can i free myself of this suffocation?
Une prière de silet pour celle amour d'I
Thursday, January 14, 2010
@11:04 AM
i wonder often why many people can take racist jokes but not those religious related ones. is the world that lacking of good humour? maybe i don't immerse myself into one such belief to know how deep rooted those believes are to those who hold faith and how dead serious they are that there can be no questions, no humour. i just find it stifling already from making such a statement already i wonder how they take that in stride. its at best that we just leave it as 'i don't understand you and you don't understand me. since we do not understand each other but still have to co-exist, we tolerate with invisible tensions'. what a time bomb.
anw school has been great. the first week is all relaxed with no tutorials and assignments and project whats not. doing a lil mugging for warmups after the month long break...feels awesome to be back.
train, mug, sleep, eat....and sometimes you, for a little essence for my soul. :)
Une prière de silet pour celle amour d'I
Friday, January 08, 2010
@12:34 AM
Thanks for making my day.
One which i haven't felt so comfortable about in a long time.
But isn't it funny its almost all so familiar yet its really the first.
Something tells me i'm comfortable.
yet i can't devote.
Une prière de silet pour celle amour d'I
